Today

Waiting.  Trusting.  Why is it so hard to do?  We need to sell our home and it has been on the market for a very long time now.  Not as long as some folks but 6 months and paying now for two places is getting expensive.  I'm really bummed that we will miss another gardening season and having to live in a home I can't decorate.  Not to mention living without our stuff.  We're finally getting to where we are beginning to purchase what we already own but can't get to.  ARGH!!!  No swing set for the boys to play on, nothing to have fun with here in our rental.  The winter walls are closing in and it's really getting to me.

I am not trying to say that this is the worst thing in the world, I know what that could look like and honestly, I'll take this small trial over those other possibilities any day!  Still, it's like living in nowhere.  You're not home, you aren't anywhere.  It doesn't even smell like home.  It isn't.  It is someone else's home and if they put this place back on the market we could have to be out in 30 days if they get an offer.  *sigh*  If we could just find a buyer for our home.....all of our plans and future are on hold until that happens.  Talk about all our eggs in one basket!  This economy is like the wild critters who come to steal those eggs and devour them all right infront of us.  Breaking, smashing and spilling them to utter destruction.  All we can do is watch...helplessly.

Yet, there is One who sees.  One who knows.  One who holds us in His hands so closely.  We hold on to hope that He will deliver us from this stagnancy, from this waiting, from this place of watching our finances trickle down.  It really all belongs to Him anyway and none of it is ours.  I pray for His favor, I pray for it to come quickly.  Still, it iwll be in His timing and not my own.  I asked Him for a fleece, to show me the time.  The answer came back April.  Oh how I cling to hope!! Still, in reflection, I don't think I should have asked Him that.  Anything He ever felt I should know He has told me in the past.  Without my really asking, just in prayer, pouring out my heart and in His mercy He would tell me.  Now I went to Him. Anway, as it says in the OT, wait and see if it comes to pass and if it does then you know it was from the Lord.  April is only 1 week aways.  He never said what part of April and I hope it isn't the 30th! lol Oh how hard that is going to be huh? hee hee! 

Anyway, my hope is still expectant in Him, He is the only one who can help us with the sale of our home.  Such a beautiful place it was.  May He give us His mercy and bring a buyer.